Breathing

Is there ever a time as a new(ish) Mom that you ever get to breathe again? I have a WONDERFUL little 6 and a half month old boy and he is great,but he constantly needs my attention. Not to mention the laundry, dishes and dinner that needs to be made with little to no help around the house. I love my husband, but honestly, he comes home from work and stays attached to the computer or Xbox for the rest of the night before giving his 15-20 minutes of "quality time" to the baby.
Its really frustrating, he gets to go take 2 hour baths and relax and I am going 800 miles an hour twenty-four hours a day. I'm the one who gets up with the baby, I'm the one who feeds him, bathes him, plays with him, feeds everyone does it all. I just wonder when will there be time for ME?
I wouldn't change being a Mom for anything in the world, but when I feel like I am doing it all myself it is just A LOT to do.
I also tend to feel like with all I do, I've accomplished nothing throughout the day. As I look around me I see that it seems like nothing has been done. I don't have a support system. I don't have my family to lean on, yes from a distance I do. But all of my family and my friends are 3000 miles away. I have a few friends here, but I don't see them a lot and it isn't the same dynamic I had at home, since I've moved nearly 5 years ago, I haven't felt like ME.
I feel like I've lost myself somewhere and when things pile up on me it just starts to snowball and I never get a chance to breathe.
Maybe someday, though I don't know when.

My little man did GREAT at the doctor today, he made her laugh so hard when Daddy put him on his shoulders and he started to crack up and drool all over his head. You just cant help but laugh when he laughs and he has started laughing at the most random things. I walked out of the hallway today and he started laughing, the kid is crazy! :o)

At 6months, he weighs 15.9lbs and is 25.25inches long, both in the twentieth percentile, but since he was a month early, he's still catching up, one thing that he DOESN'T need to catch up on is that noggin of his! He's in the 75th percentile with a circumference of 45 inches! A big ol smart brain! He's ahead and or right on track developmentally and nearly everything! My big boy is getting so, well, BIG! He cried at his shots, but when I gave him a hug he stopped right away, he's a brave one!

We are now home and are settling in, it's started to snow AGAIN, can I just say that I think it's Groundhog hunting season?! I am so friggin ready for the spring, but that damned hog saw his shadow! We are expecting 4 inches tonight and more on the weekend. I was/am supposed to get to VA Beach this weekend for a friends wedding, but I don't know if we will make it now and that makes me sad. Finally a friend from home is fairly close to me and I cant get to her because of the damn snow! It's been ruining my plans since December! I've had to cancel 2 parties and now this! I am writing a strongly worded letter to Jack Frost! This sucks!

On the plus side the hubby and I are anxiously awaiting the return of LOST for the final season. I'm excited, yet sad to see it go, but I am so ready for some questions to finally be answered, I hope. Though they are not the best at resolving things...so we'll see!

Well, I think this is all for now. Gotta keep an eye on baby, he gets fevers after shots.

Talk atcha later!

Sarah:o)

Inspiration

Hello!

Well, one of my favorite people in the world has decided to start a blog, I'm sure she will be much more successful at keeping up with it than I am; I've never been able to keep a diary longer than a month, so wish me luck.

What will I write about? Hmmm, I guess the Julia Child recipe thing has been done and I'm really not that interesting, but I do have things I'd like to say and share whether or not anyone reads my scattered thoughts is to be determined, but my hope is to be able to share ideas and thought and perhaps an anecdote or two. I am looking forward to seeing what people will have to say!

On another note, today is my baby boy's 6 month birthday. It's amazing to think its been that long already! When people say it goes by fast, they weren't kidding! We've waited so long for him to get here and now that he's here it's incredible how my life has changed and everything is about him. He doesn't know that of course, but being a Mom has been something I have wanted all my life and now it's my turn, God has let me have a chance and I am SO grateful! He amaze me everyday. I cannot get enough of seeing him learn new things and his smile and laugh melts my heart. Everyday is a challenge and a blessing. Tomorrow is his 6 month doctors appointment, so we shall see just how big he is and how long!

Considering I was in the hospital for 20 days with Preeclampsia before he was born and he was born 4 weeks early and in the hospital for 15 days after his birth at 5lbs. 8oz. at 9:09AM in the morning by emergency c-section, he is truly a miracle and a damn cute one too!

Happy Birthday, Patrick! Mommy Loves YOU!